I thought I would try something to let my feelings out. Today was a really rough day.. My kids were just terrible today, and I was so exhausted (from not feeling well) that I just broke! I was yelling, and crying and just not being who I want to be. Sometimes I just feel like I'm not a very good mother, even though my husband (the love of my life, my "better half", my best friend) tells me that I am. I just can't believe it. I wish I had more patience to handle when my kids act up.
Then, I went to see the Dr. (I love my Dr. He is amazing) because I am having allergy issues. (Allergies caused me to have breathing trouble, so I had to use a couple inhalers.. which caused a sore throat) I also found out I have some condition on my face causing sores on my chin. Well, come to find out, my insurance (which is PCN.. so it doesn't cover much) doesn't cover the Rx I needed to take. So, I paid the $45 for the one for my throat, and had to pass on the ointment for my skin (which is $210) and I'm just really bummed about it. Like they say.. when it rains.. it POURS! I just keep thinking things are going to turn around for us.. and they just don't.
I love my family, I just wish our situation was better. I would love for Shawn to be able to get a good paying, full-time job with insurance and benefits. I would love to not have to live in my parents basement. I would love to be able to finally be financially secure. I would love to not feel like the screw-up of the family.
Well.. I think that is good for tonight.. until next time...
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